A Modern Utopia11. The Bubble Bursts§ 1As I walk back along the river terrace to the hotel where the botanist awaits me, and observe the Utopians I encounter, I have no thought that my tenure of Utopia becomes every moment more precarious. There float in my mind vague anticipations of more talks with my double and still more, of a steady elaboration of detail, of interesting journeys of exploration. I forget that a Utopia is a thing of the imagination that becomes more fragile with every added circumstance, that, like a soap-bubble, it is most brilliantly and variously colored at the very instant of its dissolution. This Utopia is nearly done. All the broad lines of its social organization are completed now, the discussion of all its general difficulties and problems. Utopian individuals pass me by, fine buildings tower on either hand; it does not occur to me that I may look too closely. To find the people assuming the concrete and individual, is not, as I fondly imagine, the last triumph of realization, but the swimming moment of opacity before the film gives way. To come to individual emotional cases, is to return to the earth. I find the botanist sitting at a table in the hotel courtyard. "Well?" I say, standing before him. "I've been in the gardens on the river terrace," he answers, "hoping I might see her again." "Nothing better to do?" "Nothing in the world." "You'll have your double back from India tomorrow. Then you'll have conversation." "I don't want it," he replies, compactly. I shrug my shoulders, and he adds, "At least with him." |